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This post is a part of #ALPxGUN BlogHop #BollyExpress hosted by Alpana and PraGun
and sponsored by – Unorthodoxpeeps, RangPotli, ExploreKidsWorld, SoulfulFood and, Praggatti Rao
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It was hesitance topped with loads of fear. Like intense fear, which grew each day.
Constantly. A fake all-is-OK smile brushed her wretched
depression under the carpet in the
day, only to resurface on the cold and lonely nights.
Panic attacks kept her company.
It was that time of the year again, when she had long left home
taking the train to the
land unknown. On that snowy Christmas night as she stood frozen,
inside, and outside.
A gruel some 3 Christmas nights had passed since then.
A trunk of her memories full of photographs once clicked
passionately with her husband.
Countless in number.
Each picture, each story. Story of lie, betrayal and hurt.
A treasure she taught for life, a haunted memory it turned into.
Just a look at them, splashed all the agony, fury, melancholy in
front of her.
Like a rapid flood. Destroying her little world.
she had lost the count of nights she cried and yelled forcing
herself to sleep.
Those screams. Those cuts on her wrists. Those old scars. And
the news ones.
Apart from her workplace in the daytime, she mostly locked
herself drowning in her sorrow.
Separating from the rest. To the familiar monster. Self-surrender.
Like an old habit, refusing to leave. The routine did not change
much.
It should have been more
than 1000 days and 1000 nights.
At sunrise and sunset Bella was not one person but two different
ones.
Bipolar and PTSD was consuming her every moment.
She dragged herself from bed, rolled in the bathrooms,
experienced rush of emotions,
fear of people, stench of her past, tugging her.
Christmas came, and so did her inconsolable story.
As she finished her popcorn on one freezing night, in front of
the fireplace,
Bella sprang up from her cozy sofa. She opened the suitcase
rather hesitantly
looked at the photographs carefully. Like before she did not run
away, did not escape from herself.
Today was different. Like totally unexpected of her.
As she flipped each
photograph, clenching pain, gritting anger, fighting tears she did not move.
She sat still. Like any other day she accepted what she went through.
She came to terms that it was not her mistake.
May be Santa had a different plan for her.
To give this young girl the life she deserved. The life with self-love.
The sleep she missed, the time she lost regretting, the people
who wanted Bella,
the universe which was waiting to conspire to her.
She was tired of being alone, she felt awful doing what
she has been doing.
Exhausted of the story
she kept telling herself. She wanted to change. No, transform.
Tell a different story this time.
It was not her fault that
Her husband cheated on her by choosing her friend over Bella’s love.
Her trust
was broken. Her dreams shattered. Clueless and helpless.
Self-deterioration she had taken to.
Self-deterioration she had taken to.
As if everything has an end, that night was not the same.
She was surprised. Shook hands mentally with that chirpy young woman.
Her old happy self. She did not curse or cringe or felt revenge.
As if the angels sat
next to her, she felt calm, smiled at the lovely woman in the picture.
Missed her. Ignoring the male figure in them, she said
sorry to herself.
She was the heroine and the villain of the painful story she had
written.
A new spirit surged her every nerve. Her body cells
pleaded for chance to live.
Her heart, a sprint away, from a new life in front of her.
That moment, she wanted to end all the self-wallow.
Her heart, a sprint away, from a new life in front of her.
That moment, she wanted to end all the self-wallow.
She crushed her story mentally. Into crumbles. Flushed it.
Took a vow of happiness.
A promise to herself.
Never to harm but to love. This lovely woman.
As she raised a toast to the new beginnings, her new self, Bella
felt full of life.
A real smile this time visited her after eons.
As the clock ticked past her darkness, Bella found herself as a
gift, this Christmas.
The grey clouds shifted
as the night passed and only sunshine filled her new world .
Bella lived happily ever after.
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P.S : Tried to combine and connect all the picture prompts and weaved a story around it.
Wow Rashmi, I could actually imagine bella with photographs scattered around, the pain she had gone thru, when she stood frozen, chills down me. I hope this never becomes anyone's true story and stay as fiction, but truth is bitter I know.
ReplyDeleteGlad that new year has bought new sunshine to her life of which she is not afraid or scared of.
Great post and glad to have you on #ALPxGUN #BollyExpress
Nice heart warming story Rashmi. I liked the way New Beginings started coming into her life
ReplyDeleteThe post is brimming with emotions..The pain and suffering that Bella is going through has been expressed very well..Good that the grey clouds vanished from her life..Nicely presented..
ReplyDeleteNew beginning after such an incidence is tough. Your writing is heart touching.
ReplyDeleteYour combination of prompts gave rise to to good fiction story that we wish to remain fiction. Liked your creative take in this post.
ReplyDeleteWow..Bella had a tough time..you portrayed it so well that I could imagine it happening right in front of my eyes. But it was good to read that Bella was able to make a new beginning.
ReplyDeleteThanks for participating in the#ALPxGUN #BollyExpress.
How wonderfully expressed. Glad it ends on a positive note.
ReplyDeleteWell compiled incorporating all the prompts . kudos ! A very realistic narration. Loved the ending how everything becomes happy all over again.!!!
ReplyDeleteAmazing description of the shattered Bella and her recovery. Loved to the core ❤️
ReplyDeleteSuch an inspiring story. Great that she found herself back to do a fresh start. Great story!
ReplyDeleteThe visualization is too real! Hope Bella is able to overcome all her fears and be free again. :)
ReplyDeleteYou made an amazing fiction out of the prompts.. The story is so gripping and you don't want to leave it until reading the end.. You have narrated a story of sorrow and self pity and how a person can turn his painful life into a happy one by just letting go of the bad past..Lovely post my friend..
ReplyDeleteWow! This was some story telling incorporating so many prompts. A beautiful story of self transformation.
ReplyDeleteBella is shown as strong lady here letting go of the thing that she kept on regretting abt, a very new take on the prompt,loved Ur write up
ReplyDeleteThis is a great story. A story of Bella's strength. I am glad that she opened the doors for herself. New year new beginnings. Cheers!!
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